today was ten stolen minutes of prayer and coffee on my
new, still unfamiliar feeling balcony
with my beloved herbs
and a muffin i forgot to eat
today was a navy loafer sole flipping off minutes before
mass was supposed to start and
having to lift my right foot higher than
looked normal to walk without tripping
today was waiting until four minutes past eight and
then learning the Fathers miscommunicated and
we had to wait for a priest to drive over to
officiate our Friday morning mass
and we sang three of the children's
favorite songs to make the time
which passes so slowly in the Cathedral
pass just a little quicker
today was not knowing what to do about a problem
but praying and not knowing what to do about
a feeling but singing and not knowing how
I could still miss my uncle so much
but reading through several old
emails from him I had archived
and the emails were all thank you notes
for cards I had sent him during the last
years of his life and this moment
before my seventh graders are going
to start arriving in ones and twos with their
stories and fears and hopes and woes
that I have, with a second cup of coffee
and the wizard of oz snow globe he and
my aunt gave me when I was a child
sitting here at my desk,
which feels like home, which feels like now, which feels like
goodness
and today will be many other things I do not yet know
and will not even recognize
and now i am okay with
it all again
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